Run down

I've been dealing with quite the myriad of emotions lately. Obviously, this impending move across the country leaves me nervous and excited at the same time. I am nervous because I will most likely arrive to a new state, unemployed, surviving on a bit of savings and left to rely on my boyfriend until I do find work. Honestly, that leaves me quite unsettled. And I know that I will find work but the interim is what I am concerned with. I don't want him to grow resentful of me. This feeling stems from what I grew up seeing my father feel for my mother since she didn't work but instead chose to raise my sister and I. Of course, that is not the path I am choosing for myself but even having someone take care of me for a short while leaves me with a pit in my stomach.

More than anything I want to be proud of myself but I also very much want Manny to be proud of me. For him to see me as an accomplished, intelligent woman. I do get down on myself because his ex-girlfriend before me was incredibly smart, also a psychologist, an excellent writer, pretty, tall... I understand I am being ridiculous because Manny loves me and has chosen to be with me but I can't help but regress to these feelings given my current circumstance. I want nothing more than to further my education and move forth with a new career. Given my age though, it does make it more difficult but nothing is impossible and I know that I am capable. Remaining positive and determined is what I need to hold to.

Despite all of the above, I did manage to have a very enjoyable weekend with Manny's aunt and uncle whom came for a visit to San Diego. We definitely over-indulged in some amazing food and drink. However, it was worth all the laughs and good conversation that was had.

Monday was a rough one though. I managed to wake up for my stats class but my throat was sore and I was incredibly tired. I decided to take the day off work and just rest. I certainly got plenty of rest; I slept from 8:30 am-4:30 pm! Needless to say, I wanted to get my body moving. I hadn't exercised at all over the weekend and my body was in debt. I made my way to the Burbank hills for a short yet rewarding hike. I worked up a sweat and got some fresh air which I know I needed. I then got some Trader Joe's goodies since the fridge was quite bare and took it easy for the remainder of the evening.

I also wanted to share this amazing recipe that I made on Friday prior to going to San Diego:
Banana Bread Granola http://minimalistbaker.com/banana-bread-granola/
It was very easy and makes a huge batch. I was very impressed with myself and everyone I shared it with thought it was incredible...especially Manny who loves all things banana :)

Here are some pics to highlight the weekend:

Those mussels and scallops were so amazing. The food is from Stone Brewery at Liberty Station. I wish I would've taken pictures of the outside patio, the ambiance is spectacular. The last picture is from a Russian restaurant we ate at. So many veggie options. Manny and I shared two dishes, one being a vegetarian french dip that was so wonderful! Great food!

I'm hoping the rest of the week is good for all of you. Wishing you health and happiness :)

Xx Nicole